21.02.03 - 3:41 p.m.

i dreamt last night that i met a boy at disneyland.
he looked like josh oakley who wore
scrabble underwear and kept me up every night for months
feeling like a pedophile, fantasizing about
a sneaky rendezvous with a homeschooled seventeen yearold.
he signed his emails loverboy. we made up
cutesy nicknames for eachother. he was lanky
and beautiful and had superb taste in music.
eventually he got a real girlfriend and stopped
driving up from seattle to play boardgames
but my dream josh and i flew away in a little
white airplane last night while my mother below carried
posters warning of the apocalypse.