26.09.04 - 3:00 p.m.

it's hard to say i have to do this myself
if im going to do it effectively.
i have to experience it alone to experience it
fully. for someone whose family
is stiflingly supportive it's incomprehensible
but you have to trust that it isn't because
i don't want you there. it's because this
sadness is mine, this relationship is
my identity to an extent you'll never
understand. i don't need to feel better,
i need to have it out with him and feel terrible.